Hello everyone!!!! I'm so sorry I haven't updated this blog in a very long time. A lot happened in 2016 (I will write about a few things in future posts.) I am going to be quite busy in 2017. I am going to be working on 3 year long quilts and crochet a year long crochet project (quilting and crocheting are all new to me).
Another big thing that Kendall and I are going to start.. FOSTER PARENTING!!!! I will keep you updated in future posts. Kendall and I had our 1st of 8 classes last night and it was AMAZING!!!! I can't put into words how happy I was during class. My heart and spirit were as full as if I had just found out I was pregnant again. It feels so right!!!!
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY HEIDI & NOAH!!!!
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY HEIDI NICOLE & NOAH EZEKIEL !!!!! MOMMY & DADDY LOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH SO MUCH!!!! WE HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY WITH MICAH, ALISON AND ALL OF OUR LOVED ONES WHO ARE WITH YOU!!!! GIVE THEM ALL OUR LOVE!!!!
I still think about and miss you 4 every second of every day. Although you were only with us for a few weeks, you changed and enriched our lives beyond words. We look forward to the day when we can hold you in our arms. You will always be our children and we will never forget you!!!!!
I still think about and miss you 4 every second of every day. Although you were only with us for a few weeks, you changed and enriched our lives beyond words. We look forward to the day when we can hold you in our arms. You will always be our children and we will never forget you!!!!!
Thursday, June 23, 2016
Heavenly Father Is Writing Our Story
Since I was 16 years old, I had almost daily experiences with my then future children Micah, Alison (formally known as Rain), and twins Nicole (now known as Heidi Nicole) and Noah. There have been other children though that I have known that I called 'Spirit children'. They will be my children but would come to Kendall and I through other ways besides biological. These children may only be with Kendall and I for a few days, a few months or maybe years or a life time, but they have still been promised to me.
Now that Kendall and I are on the fostering and adopting path, it is time to meet these other children I have waited so long and so much for!!!! I know that Heavenly Father will lead us to where we need to be and that we will get the children we are meant to have, no matter how long they will be with us for.
I have to remember that Heavenly Father is writing our story and will be with us at every step. He will take us to the people and places we need to achieve the plans and promises He has for us. The aching need to be parents that Heavenly Father planted in the both of us when we were little. The VERY INTIMATE relationship I had with our future children (ALL of them). The LONG, AGONIZING trials we have had in our marriage, the loss of our children, the many moves, Kendall having a co-worker who happened to just start being a foster parent at the exact moment Kendall and I NEEDED another way to grow our family. Even Kendall having a life long dream of being in the Air Force (and me secretly always been wanting to be a military wife) and him actually working on it coming true. EVERY STEP has led us to getting these 'Spirit Children'. I KNOW that soon, Kendall and I will look back and realize all of the miracles that have happened in our lives, including the moments we felt our lives were shattered.
I have to remember that Heavenly Father is writing our story and will be with us at every step. He will take us to the people and places we need to achieve the plans and promises He has for us. The aching need to be parents that Heavenly Father planted in the both of us when we were little. The VERY INTIMATE relationship I had with our future children (ALL of them). The LONG, AGONIZING trials we have had in our marriage, the loss of our children, the many moves, Kendall having a co-worker who happened to just start being a foster parent at the exact moment Kendall and I NEEDED another way to grow our family. Even Kendall having a life long dream of being in the Air Force (and me secretly always been wanting to be a military wife) and him actually working on it coming true. EVERY STEP has led us to getting these 'Spirit Children'. I KNOW that soon, Kendall and I will look back and realize all of the miracles that have happened in our lives, including the moments we felt our lives were shattered.
LET THE CLASSES BEGIN!!!!
TODAY IS THE DAY!!!! Foster parenting classes (STARS) begin tonight at 6PM in Jefferson City. I am a bit nervous that Kendall will back out once he realizes what problems may arise with foster children and in the system. I just have to have faith that Heavenly Father is writing this story and it will happen just the way it is suppose too, including Kendall joining the Air Force.
Our caseworker, CB, came to our apartment on Monday. Things went great!!!! It was more of an introduction meeting, where we got to know each other a little bit. She talked to about what classes will be like (tonights class we will be given TONS of paperwork that we have to fill out) and she toured our apartment. She said that she wants to visit 2 more times before classes finish (on August 25th). I really liked CB and I feel a lot better knowing she is on our side and wants us to succeed.
I will update on how the first day of class went later in the week.
Our caseworker, CB, came to our apartment on Monday. Things went great!!!! It was more of an introduction meeting, where we got to know each other a little bit. She talked to about what classes will be like (tonights class we will be given TONS of paperwork that we have to fill out) and she toured our apartment. She said that she wants to visit 2 more times before classes finish (on August 25th). I really liked CB and I feel a lot better knowing she is on our side and wants us to succeed.
I will update on how the first day of class went later in the week.
Wednesday, June 8, 2016
A HUGE BOMBSHELL
On Monday night, Kendall and I were getting ready for bed when he drops a HUGE bombshell that will prevent us from fostering and adopting for probably at least one year, if not longer. HE IS GOING TO JOIN THE AIR FORCE in October. Both of his parents served in the Air Force for many years (his Dad was in it for 40 years). Kendall has ALWAYS DREAMED of going to military school and joining the Air Force, but several road blocks prevented him from joining.
Several weeks ago, Kendall was looking for available jobs in his field (his current job will probably be moving out of state soon). He came across a link for the Air Force and although thinking he was too old now to join, he decided to look into it. He found out that he had until he was 39 to enlist (he is 35 now). He became SO EXCITED at finding that out and knew instantly that that is what he was going to do. He thought long and hard about all of the pro's and con's but decided that the pro's outweighed the con's (I will write about them later).
He already thought about what this would do with our plans to foster and adopt and he is so sorry to put them on hold, but he feels like this is what is best for our family. We are still going to have the home inspection and take the classes but there won't be time to foster, let alone adopt. We both however whole heartedly agreed that signing up to foster and adopt will be our TOP priority when we arrive at our first state-side base.
Several weeks ago, Kendall was looking for available jobs in his field (his current job will probably be moving out of state soon). He came across a link for the Air Force and although thinking he was too old now to join, he decided to look into it. He found out that he had until he was 39 to enlist (he is 35 now). He became SO EXCITED at finding that out and knew instantly that that is what he was going to do. He thought long and hard about all of the pro's and con's but decided that the pro's outweighed the con's (I will write about them later).
He already thought about what this would do with our plans to foster and adopt and he is so sorry to put them on hold, but he feels like this is what is best for our family. We are still going to have the home inspection and take the classes but there won't be time to foster, let alone adopt. We both however whole heartedly agreed that signing up to foster and adopt will be our TOP priority when we arrive at our first state-side base.
Tuesday, June 7, 2016
It's about to start
I just got an e-mail from our caseworker, CB, at Great Circle. We have scheduled our home inspection for Monday June 13th at 4:30PM. Also, they have had to reschedule the STARS foster parenting classes for Thursday nights from June 23rd-August 25th (instead of the Monday nights they were scheduled). The classes will still be held from 6PM-9PM in Jefferson City.
I am SOOOO EXCITED and SOOOO SCARED!!!!! All I keep thinking about is that THIS MEETING is the ONE THING that will determine if I get to be a mother or not. If we pass with flying colors, we are set to be parents. If we fail, our chance to be parents comes to a complete stop and we will never get the chance ever again. Kendall and I's LIFE LONG DREAM, WISH, DESIRE will just end up as a living nightmare with a PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL and SPIRITUAL ACHE THAT WON'T GO AWAY!!!
I just have to have to remember that CB is coming with an attitude that she WANTS us to pass!!! She WANTS to help us!!! She WANTS us to succeed!!! She is on OUR side!!! She is NOT an enemy looking for ways to fail us!!! Besides her, we have to remember that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are even MORE on our side then CB. If this is part of the plan They have for Kendall and I, we CAN NOT AND WILL NOT FAIL!!!!
I am SOOOO EXCITED and SOOOO SCARED!!!!! All I keep thinking about is that THIS MEETING is the ONE THING that will determine if I get to be a mother or not. If we pass with flying colors, we are set to be parents. If we fail, our chance to be parents comes to a complete stop and we will never get the chance ever again. Kendall and I's LIFE LONG DREAM, WISH, DESIRE will just end up as a living nightmare with a PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL and SPIRITUAL ACHE THAT WON'T GO AWAY!!!
I just have to have to remember that CB is coming with an attitude that she WANTS us to pass!!! She WANTS to help us!!! She WANTS us to succeed!!! She is on OUR side!!! She is NOT an enemy looking for ways to fail us!!! Besides her, we have to remember that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are even MORE on our side then CB. If this is part of the plan They have for Kendall and I, we CAN NOT AND WILL NOT FAIL!!!!
Monday, May 30, 2016
Waiting
I turned in the initial set of paperwork for fostering a week ago and we have yet to hear back from the agency. Robin and I are on pins and needles waiting to hear back so we can start shopping for the nursery. Kendall is filled with doubt that we will pass inspection. He says that there are hundreds of reasons we could be denied for fostering and doesn't want to get his hopes up (we already have been let down 4 times when it comes to having children). I sure hope all of this waiting ends very soon, WITH GOOD NEWS!!!!
In the mean time, Robin and I continue to drool over the plans we have for the nursery. We had a snag where the crib was concerned (we had an almost impossible time finding a regular sized crib that converted into a twin bed) but last night I found one that does. Best of all Robin and I love the color, design AND price. We are both SOOOO HAPPY!!! This crib will work well with the Woodland Critters and outdoors theme we are doing. We now will have even more fun picking out crib sheets.
I did however buy one thing for our future kids, a baby carrier. I had already planned on baby wearing our biological kids so it was just natural that I continue the pan with our foster kids. I did quite a bit of research for baby carriers while I was pregnant with Micah and then continued it while there was a chance of biological children. I was debating between an Ergo 360 or a Lillebaby. I had never seen any of them in person before until last week when I found a Lilebaby in a baby boutique. I fell in LOVE with it and immediately went home to check on styles and designs. I once again came across a Lillebaby All Seasons print I loved and decided I had to have it. I spent hours looking online for a place that sold it and, thinking I would never find it again for sale, snagged it up. I am so excited for it to arrive. I will write about it again when it comes.
In the mean time, Robin and I continue to drool over the plans we have for the nursery. We had a snag where the crib was concerned (we had an almost impossible time finding a regular sized crib that converted into a twin bed) but last night I found one that does. Best of all Robin and I love the color, design AND price. We are both SOOOO HAPPY!!! This crib will work well with the Woodland Critters and outdoors theme we are doing. We now will have even more fun picking out crib sheets.
I did however buy one thing for our future kids, a baby carrier. I had already planned on baby wearing our biological kids so it was just natural that I continue the pan with our foster kids. I did quite a bit of research for baby carriers while I was pregnant with Micah and then continued it while there was a chance of biological children. I was debating between an Ergo 360 or a Lillebaby. I had never seen any of them in person before until last week when I found a Lilebaby in a baby boutique. I fell in LOVE with it and immediately went home to check on styles and designs. I once again came across a Lillebaby All Seasons print I loved and decided I had to have it. I spent hours looking online for a place that sold it and, thinking I would never find it again for sale, snagged it up. I am so excited for it to arrive. I will write about it again when it comes.
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