Today my stress and worry about fostering and adoption has been sky high. I keep fretting that our opportunity to be parents aren't in our hands, that other people get to decide if I get to be a Mommy!!! Our 3 references have to tell the agency so much about us. Are they going to say too little? Are they going to say too much? Are they going to say too many bad things????
If we do end up passing with our references, we still have to make a good enough impressions with our home study and other paperwork. Although being a Mommy is ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED since I was 4 years old, I just don't feel confident that a stranger will think I will be a good Mommy.
I just pray that Heavenly Father will allow me to be comforted, confident and be ok. I just REALLY hope that things work out and Kendall and I FINALLY get to be parents to children we hold in our arms!!!!
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