Heavenly Father Is Writing Our Story

Yesterday Robin came across this video on FaceBook.  PLEASE WATCH IT!!!! THIS WILL BE OUR STORY SOON!!! "In that moment, I felt God tell me 'Do you see how much I love you? Do you see what I have done? You had no idea I have been writing this story... I've been with you this whole time.  I've been walking this thing with you.  I've just been saying 'Trust Me! Trust Me! Trust Me! I've got something good up ahead!!!"

Since I was 16 years old, I had almost daily experiences with my then future children Micah, Alison (formally known as Rain), and twins Nicole (now known as Heidi Nicole) and Noah. There have been other children though that I have known that I called 'Spirit children'. They will be my children but would come to Kendall and I through other ways besides biological. These children may only be with Kendall and I for a few days, a few months or maybe years or a life time, but they have still been promised to me.

Now that Kendall and I are on the fostering and adopting path, it is time to meet these other children I have waited so long and so much for!!!! I know that Heavenly Father will lead us to where we need to be and that we will get the children we are meant to have, no matter how long they will be with us for.

I have to remember that Heavenly Father is writing our story and will be with us at every step.  He will take us to the people and places we need to achieve the plans and promises He has for us.  The aching need to be parents that Heavenly Father planted in the both of us when we were little. The VERY INTIMATE relationship I had with our future children (ALL of them). The LONG, AGONIZING trials we have had in our marriage, the loss of our children, the many moves, Kendall having a co-worker who happened to just start being a foster parent at the exact moment Kendall and I NEEDED another way to grow our family.  Even Kendall having a life long dream of being in the Air Force (and me secretly always been wanting to be a military wife) and him actually working on it coming true.  EVERY STEP has led us to getting these 'Spirit Children'.  I KNOW that soon, Kendall and I will look back and realize all of the miracles that have happened in our lives, including the moments we felt our lives were shattered.  

LET THE CLASSES BEGIN!!!!

TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!  Foster parenting classes (STARS) begin tonight at 6PM in Jefferson City.  I am a bit nervous that Kendall will back out once he realizes what problems may arise with foster children and in the system.  I just have to have faith that Heavenly Father is writing this story and it will happen just the way it is suppose too, including Kendall joining the Air Force.

Our caseworker, CB, came to our apartment on Monday.  Things went great!!!!  It was more of an introduction meeting, where we got to know each other a little bit.  She talked to about what classes will be like (tonights class we will be given TONS of paperwork that we have to fill out) and she toured our apartment.  She said that she wants to visit 2 more times before classes finish (on August 25th).  I really liked CB and I feel a lot better knowing she is on our side and wants us to succeed.

I will update on how the first day of class went later in the week.  

A HUGE BOMBSHELL

On Monday night, Kendall and I were getting ready for bed when he drops a HUGE bombshell that will prevent us from fostering and adopting for probably at least one year, if not longer.  HE IS GOING TO JOIN THE AIR FORCE in October.  Both of his parents served in the Air Force for many years (his Dad was in it for 40 years).  Kendall has ALWAYS DREAMED of going to military school and joining the Air Force, but several road blocks prevented him from joining.


Several weeks ago, Kendall was looking for available jobs in his field (his current job will probably be moving out of state soon).  He came across a link for the Air Force and although thinking he was too old now to join, he decided to look into it.  He found out that he had until he was 39 to enlist (he is 35 now).  He became SO EXCITED at finding that out and knew instantly that that is what he was going to do.  He thought long and hard about all of the pro's and con's but decided that the pro's outweighed the con's (I will write about them later).


He already thought about what this would do with our plans to foster and adopt and he is so sorry to put them on hold, but he feels like this is what is best for our family.  We are still going to have the home inspection and take the classes but there won't be time to foster, let alone adopt.  We both however whole heartedly agreed that signing up to foster and adopt will be our TOP priority when we arrive at our first state-side base.

It's about to start

I just got an e-mail from our caseworker, CB, at Great Circle.  We have scheduled our home inspection for Monday June 13th at 4:30PM.  Also, they have had to reschedule the STARS foster parenting classes for Thursday nights from June 23rd-August 25th (instead of the Monday nights they were scheduled).  The classes will still be held from 6PM-9PM in Jefferson City.

I am SOOOO EXCITED and SOOOO SCARED!!!!!  All I keep thinking about is that THIS MEETING is the ONE THING that will determine if I get to be a mother or not.  If we pass with flying colors, we are set to be parents.  If we fail, our chance to be parents comes to a complete stop and we will never get the chance ever again.  Kendall and I's LIFE LONG DREAM, WISH, DESIRE will just end up as a living nightmare with a PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL and SPIRITUAL ACHE THAT WON'T GO AWAY!!!

I just have to have to remember that CB is coming with an attitude that she WANTS us to pass!!!  She WANTS to help us!!!  She WANTS us to succeed!!!  She is on OUR side!!!  She is NOT an enemy looking for ways to fail us!!!  Besides her, we have to remember that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are even MORE on our side then CB.  If this is part of the plan They have for Kendall and I, we CAN NOT AND WILL NOT FAIL!!!!